I have the most beautiful friends. I love how all of my friends are so completely different from one another but we all get along all the time because we're so full of love for one another. And it's not even that we're best friends or anything like that, they just happen to all be so amazing. They're such all such a blessing to my life. I used to think that things just had to be a certain way, that I was expecting too much from friendship. But when I'm around my true friends and I see how perfectly the universe can align and how big my smile gets, I know that's what I deserve and that I was wrong before for settling when I didn't have to. Friends are my everything, they're my Heaven and Earth. Whether you're my best friend or that guy I met on Tuesday, you mean the world to me. When your place in my life starts to fuzz or fade, my heart breaks. Seeing a true friend next to me smiling always makes me so much stronger. I have a friend, someone I once loved more than anyone in the world and maybe I still do, but he breaks my heart almost every day in almost every way. It's hard to stay strong and committed to saving our friendship, but I try. Always remember that you're worth everything. Don't give up on people but don't let them hurt you either.

Tonight a handful of friends came over, some that I've only known a few days now. But we threw in SingStar and knew no shame in our awful (awful!) singing abilities. We're all dancing around and singing and joking and there's no expectations, there's no having to act cool or worry about how you must look to everyone else. The fun had to end sometime but I'm glad it's a weekly ritual to get together and do just as we please.